Authenticity

I was sitting in the field yesterday trying to make a video regarding my emotions over this past week's loss and our upcoming event on July 4th. I think I ended up re-recording it about 6 times. Everything kept coming out all jumbled and I couldn't seem to get across what I wanted to say.

I had grounded into the space prior to starting and asked for guidance to help me share what needed to be heard in order to instill connection and compassion within people. The girls were hanging around me, grazing and interacting as they normally do. But as I continued to record, I began experiencing frustration within myself that the words just weren't coming out right. I was being hard on myself and getting irritated that I just couldn't seem to do it right.

That's when the herd cleared away and Spice walked over to me. She didn't nuzzle me. She didn't nudge me. She didn't 'do' anything, she just stood there. And as I looked over my shoulder at her I instantly felt the emotions well up inside me that I had been pushing aside this past week.

I began to sob. And as I sat there, releasing everything that had been held within me, she just stood there and held space. She licked and chewed and stomped the ground as she helped move energy through me and back into the Earth to be cleansed. And I could just feel the tenderness and the understanding that was coming from her.

She knows grief. She understands loss. She resonated with my confusion and my stress. And she stepped in graciously, confidently and whole heartedly to hold space so that I could let it all go.

I know the power horses carry within them. The gentleness. The honesty. The compassion. The love. I hold space for each of them and I see them hold space for other people every single day.

And I often forget to allow them to step in and hold space for me.

Thank you my beautiful Spice, for sharing your gift and reminding me of how important it is to always remain authentic in who you are and how you show up in the world. Thank you for creating the opportunity that allowed me to step back into my body and into the feeling of connection and oneness that we all so deeply need.

Spirit answered my call when I grounded into the space prior to recording. I was, in fact, divinely guided to share what needed to be heard. Despite there being no words spoken. See the video HERE.